Gives her permission to breathe And she checks the time To make sure his medication Is all lined up And ready for him to take And she wipes her eyes So he will never notice Her tears nor hear the hurt As her heart breaks Then, a smile in place She goes and sits beside him And he talks about the future And the things they'll do When he is better and their life Is back on track again When his pain's all gone And they can then pursue The dreams they'd always dreamed of And the promises
They'd made the other Many years ago When his steps were strong And her voice did not tremble When the happy face she wore Was not all show Then his eyes begin to close As tiredness takes him So she gently pulls the throw Around his form And she hopes he cannot sense The sobs inside her As she swallows hard To try and block their flow Then moving to the armchair She sits down awhile Her own eyes heavy But her mind rejecting sleep And she looks around the room Packed with their memories And as he softly snores She quietly weeps "Dear God, I'm begging Please don't let me lose him But more than that Don't let him lose himself He's a good man who deserves To live a full life Take me instead And release him from this hell" Then the phone rings And his mother asks "How is he?" And she lies and tells her "He's doing just fine" 'Cos the age and distance Of this gentle woman If told the truth right now Would destroy her mind But the time will come When those words Must be spoken And that time creeps ever closer By the day And she dreads that moment For a million reasons Each of those reasons A teardrop wrapped in pain And the days move on And he's slipping ever further To a place where she just wishes She could go To walk with him 'till he found His peaceful Paradise His pain removed His energies restored There she'd wait with him awhile Until passed loved ones Gathered round to greet him With cheery smiles As the wagging tails of passed pets Glad to see him Marked the air With wonderful memories Of different times And seeing his contentment She'd return once more Back to the earthly world Where she missed him so But with certain knowledge That one day they would meet again And this time they'd hold the other And never let go. (The image below is a sculpture made possible thanks to the amazing soul Lucy, the Holistic Practitioner at Willowbrook Hospice...and it is embedded with mine and Michael's handprints...joined in clay...but forever imprinted on my heart)
When we are born From the moment we're pushed out Evicted, through grunts an' shouts It begins The sticky stuff covering us Starts attracting life's detritus And it clings The midwife may wipe it off But that does not mean It's not there Collecting from life Every hurt caused by strife Until we're Worn down by the weight of it Self-worth fading bit by bit Losing hope Of ever recovering As problems keep piling in It's like a coat Made entirely from misery And societies warped trickeries Heavy and coarse And like lint roller fluff It builds up and builds up But... ...let's just PAUSE As tough as the job may be There ARE ways we can be free Over time By seeing each challenge As a positive to be managed And not a bind And by changing our focus From the negatives that poke at us Soon enough Life's lint roller will clear We'll face the future without fear And our fluff will have finally Fluffed off!